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「ねえ、 今すぐ会いたいよ」
Friday, May 14, 2010  Carpe Diem. at 11:40 PM |
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“Carpe Diem” literately translated as “Seize the Day”. Although the saying may seem cheesy, corny and overused, shockingly enough following it as a motto is quite difficult. Especially when it comes to a point where everyone seems to be in constant motion and for some damned reason, you’re the only one that cannot move. At a moment when walking together in the same path is when I am the happiest, simple enough, so it seems. Dear Emma, (picture from 2OO7)  I miss you. We believed in absolutely everything that was happy and gave us sweet thoughts. We lived the day, we seized it, without even having to fight against it with our fists. Our world was the best place; it was the happiest place that I can remember. It was full of paths, full of choices, but we were always on the same one. Remember our plans? Our hopes? Our dreams? I always wondered where they went and at the same time, I wondered, where did you go? Ironically enough, that was one of our favorite songs, “Where’d you go”. Still unsure of the artist since we had an argument about whom the artist was in the first place. Back then, that entire walk… up till I took a turn to a new school, I never thought that our paths would never meet each other again. At first I thought that if I keep walking, I’ll eventually run into your path, and our paths would meet up again. I want to believe that but when I look back, I can’t see you anymore and you’ve become too far. I know that, if I run back, back to where I took that turn, you won’t be there. I moved forward, and I kept going… but now, for awhile now actually, I’m stuck. I cannot move, I can either go forward or backward, I can’t turn right or left unless I cut through. You once told me to never cut through, meaning to never take the easy way out. But I want to… because I don’t want to be here… I want to be there, where Ona, you and I once walked. - Maria. Dear Nina, We walked on the same path for quite some time now. At first we stood by each other, but now… one is always too far ahead or too far behind. Honestly, majority of the time you’ve been ahead of me, and I’d always run after you, chasing you like a dog. Shockingly enough, this entire time I never got tired, so I never bothered to take a rest. Now I always feel faint and weak, but even then that doesn’t stop me. Did you know that I’m always scared that you’ll take a turn? And that I’ll lose you through this maze that we call life. I’m scared now, at the fact that I can’t budge… I’m not scared at the fact that I’ll get lost, but rather, me losing you. Where I am, where I stand, is a familiar place, a place that I recognize well and map out in my mind. The setting isn’t what scares me… whether it’s seemingly a scary place, that’s not what haunts me. I’m honestly happy at the fact that you’re able to move forward but now… I don’t think I can move forward beside you. I don’t want it to end the same way with Emma; without trying. So, I did try, I ran, and I chased you, but because I’m weary… I can no longer keep up. I always worry that if I take a break, that I’ll end up missing something, something important, something “life-changing”, etc. So I never did take a break, and kept going along. If I do stop following, honestly, I’m not sure where I would go or end up. Sometimes I think that’s the reason why I’m still here; the fact that I’m not sure where else to go. I don’t want to be here, I want to be there, but I’m not sure… where there is… because to get here, I left there… and now that I’m here… I forgot where there is. - Sora. |
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Name: Sora (원숭이)
